Mother's Day

Mixed emotions about Mother's Day this year...dont' get me wrong it was good...had my youngest grandson, so Naomi/Mike/Logan could go to the Astros game with his ball team...Jack was so fun to have, he always is...he's our little "character" for sure...Logan is my little sweetheart and Jack is our little "character", both sweethearts, but so different...and I luv them both more and more each day...

Went to the cemetary to put flowers out there for my Mom...Jack asked where she was, just pointed to the headstone, he bent down and kissed her headstone...yep...totally lost it then...I'm trying to get used to Mother being gone...and I am...but some days...just don't do it too well...this was one of those days I guess...

My friend, Carolyn had emailed me during the night asking for some help...she wasn't very plain in the mail what was going on, so when I saw Sue, our mutual friend at church, I asked her if she had heard from Carolyn, yes, but her voicemail was confusing...felt stupid with the next step...I pulled my cell phone out of my purse to call Frances to ask her if Carolyn was ok...the whole time I was telling Sue...I'll call Frances, she'll know what's going on and what we need to do...Sue just looked at me...when I looked up, we were both bawling like babies...I think that's when it hit me...Frances was gone...she was really gone...just like Mother was gone...is gone...I remember when Chase and Ed passed away...the first Easter I went and put plastic eggs filled with rocks (so the ants wouldn't be on his grave) in them on his grave...that's when it hit me...Chase was gone...and I didn't want him to be gone...I wanted him back...I wasn't ready to give him up...but I couldn't do anything about it...bawled worse than a baby...still do...

I still miss you Mother...I miss you Chase...Ed...Uncle Bill...I miss you Frances...silly old woman...worry wart...I miss you...luv u all...miss you forever...and bawling like a baby now...glad I'm by myself...but I guess I'm really not...I know God will continue to get me through this...always has and always will...eternally grateful...silly old cry baby woman...

More organization...

Organization....

yea right...every time I decide to get "organized" I usually wind up, NOT being able to find anything for awhile...hopefully it's going to HELP me this time...

More new cards...

New Cards

I've had some serious computer problems lately, so I'm wayyyyy behind on posting...hopefully I'm up and running with "minimal" problems from now on...but my scanner program doesn't work with my new Vista 64...don't always listen to salespeople...they don't always tell u the ENTIRE story...

SO....long story short...I don't have a scanner program to work with my computer, but I'm hoping Scott's will work, but for now, I'm using my digital camera which I'm NOT good at, so my pictures r a bit blurry...sorry...I'm still learning...I'll try really hard to get better...

cindy

Spelling...

must be REALLY good antibiotics...I couldn't even spell it correctly...lol

Antiobiotics...a wonder drug!

Wow...I have been sick off and on since March now. Got sick, took a LONG time to get better, but did. Then our area flooded 3 times in 3 weeks and we worked almost non-stop. So guess what...sore throat again, I start losing my voice...crud...this hurts...BUT...I'm NOT going to a doctor...just ain't gonna happen.

So we go to our family reunion in Deadwood. Didn't get to see much of anyone, stayed in the trailer trying to sleep it off and wasn't sure just what was going on, so tried to stay clear of people so I wouldn't give it to them. All I heard from people is, you must have the Swine Flu...you better go to the doctor. So I start wondering if maybe that's what it is...start getting a bit nervous about it.

Monday morning arrives, we're back in Houston. Now I can barely talk, hurts to swallow, can't eat much, soft food only and even got to the point that I couldn't swallow chicken noodle soup...by Monday pm, I was trying to be sick at my stomach, but I didn't have anything to throw up, so had the horrible dry-heaves...on top of a terrible sore throat...

Tuesday morning, woke up...or at least crawled out of bed...haven't slept much the last 3 weeks either...I gave in and went to a dr. I don't have Swine Flu, but I do have an infected throat, which has been severely aggravated by SMOKE. And NO...I am not a smoker..but I am around people who are.

Bottom line...last day of antibiotics today...I'm feeling almost back to par now...still get tired kind of easy...and I've learned a very good lesson...stay away from cigarette smoke...it's a KILLER !

Thank you God for antibiotics!